It’s four years since I started this homeschooling blog and I have at times questioned why I am blogging. Now my oldest child is in high school and my ‘baby’ is six and we have a new baby. It has taken a long time for me to trust our journey into homeschooling. In many ways I wish I had not allowed the children to return to school because we would have established such a grounded pattern by now but at the same time I am glad they can compare the school system with homeschooling, although sometimes they forget.
I have been looking back through some of our old photographs, the children have grown so much and it makes me realise how quickly this time will pass and that they will soon be adults.
Parenting in this age is so difficult, we are no longer held safely in the embrace of the village and we are deluged by choice. By the time we figure out the best way to approach things our children have already grown up.
I knew that I wanted to homeschool before my oldest child started school eight years ago.
It frustrates me that it can sometimes take so long to trust your intuition or so long to realise that if you want something enough then you don’t need the approval of other people.
Homeschooling can be so challenging.
But it is also so incredibly rewarding to actually be with your children as they grow and learn.
Every week I have days when I wonder what the hell I am doing.
When it all seems like too much.
But I’ve learned to just take a deep breath and ride out the feeling of being overwhelmed because it will pass and soon enough we will be feeling inspired and joyful again.
Homeschooling takes courage and stamina, there will be times when it feels like the whole world is against you. It’s still very counter-cultural in Australia, people think it is strange.
But even on the bad days I love it and I recognise it as an amazing gift.
We are just getting back into it now after the birth of Little Man and we are finding our feet trying to get things done with a baby in the house. It’s different and tiring, sometimes I want to pull my hair out. But it is also deeply satisfying.
Within another five or six years my oldest children will be nearing the end of their ‘schooling’ and Oliver will be just beginning. He will probably be the fortunate child who has a parent who knows what she is doing! I want to treat the coming years with the reverence they deserve, the teen years are so critically important.
In the context of the wider world there are so many challenges, if I let myself I can be overcome by fear. So I pull back and remind myself that I just need to do my best and to trust in God, the Source of all.